4 weeks

Im starting to panic a little, I have a lot to do and very little time. Not so much with training and diet, but with posing and getting my suit ready for the show. I have officially lost 18 pounds and am down to 135. Haven't seen that number in a long time! No matter what happens the day of the show, I am proud of my efforts and accomplishments so far. This is not a one time thing for me, and my attitude towards eating and training have changed drastically..

This process is not only physically demanding but mentally as well. I have heard time and time again how this can be a very lonely sport, and I have experienced that on and off. Unless someone has gone through it, they truly can't relate. This has been the most challenging experience I have yet to have, but also the most rewarding. I've learned so much about myself and what I am capable of doing. For me this this isn't about winning and it never was. This is an individual sport, not that I don't ever thing about the other competitors and how they are training, but at the end of the day its up to me (and thank GOD my trainer) to make sure I am working as hard as I can to get to where I should be.

This process has been trial and error for me. Its my first show, I started training a little later than I would have liked but that only pushed me harder. I wouldn't have gotten half as far with out my trainer, he says I'm the one doing the work, but I would NEVER do half the shit he makes me do on my own.

So tomorrow marks 4 weeks out from the show. I am nervous and excited....

6 weeks to go

So I have 6 weeks till the show.. Not gonna lie, felt like a total basket case this weekend.. I had a lot of doubts whether or not I'm where I should be, I guess that's normal as I have never done anything like this before. I had a great chat with a friend who is currently training for a figure show about 4 weeks after mine.. It was a much needed therapy session, having someone who could 100% relate, give great advice and just validate some of my craziness was so nice..... I had some major concerns about the 6 week out diet. She gave me some great advice which I began to apply this week. I am trying "carb cycling" which is more carbs on high intensity training days, and low to moderate carb on less intense or non training days. The idea is to not allow your body to plateau, helping to boost your metabolism.. Here's hoping it works for me!!

Its scary because at this point its all trial and error.. At this point no fruit till the show, and it takes my diet to a new level of strictness. Fortunately I am so focused and had time to adjust so hopefully I will be ok.. She did tell me to prepare for some hell days as I get closer... Its not easy some days to do this, I have kids a house and a husband to take care of, thankfully they have all been incredibly supportive. My kids do not see this as a diet, Olivia says "Mommy we are all eating clean!" She is a huge fan of oatmeal and strawberries, and she apologizes if she eats a cookie in front of me, says she wishes I could have one too!

A little over 6 weeks to go!

This morning started off great. I weighed in at 137, down a total of 16 pounds! It was the boost I needed to make it through today's insane workout by Joe: a cardio day consisting of boxing and crazy stuff on the basket ball court.. suicides, jumps over hurdles, plate pushing, ladders, etc... It was awesome and a needed switch from the stairmaster, row machine and running. After getting yelled at the day before for sucking ass, I tried my best to push through without stopping..
I am fighting for every pound, trying hard not too focus too much on the scale but I have yet to do my body fat so its a good gauge for me right now, so are my jeans which I am down at least 2 sizes!

This Saturday will start the six week countdown. I need to start learning my "stage walk" and posing.. this will be the hardest part for me.. I am so afraid of walking out on that stage, I have nightmares, so I best be prepared!!

7 weeks to go..

This was a great week.. I am officially in the 130's, 138 to be exact, down a total of 15 pounds proof that dedication and of course a great trainer pays off. I feel great, although need some new clothes!! Not a bad thing. I have 51 days till the show and I am so motivated to keep kicking my ass. Yes its a lot of work, but also incredibly rewarding. This entry is short, sorry but the B's, C's and Sox are on tonight;) New Pics coming soon!!!

Monday Funday!

I love to hate these Monday morning kick in the ass workouts.. Its great after resting all day Sunday, but its so challenging and at times I feel like I could puke. This is something I would never make myself do on my own, so its great to be pushed farther and harder than you think you can go.

The weekend was rough, being a "man I feel like a woman" time I was craving everything in site.. I did not cheat at all, but did cry in the kitchen on Saturday, Jay was there to offer support and lock all the cabinets. Speaking of Jay, he has started what he refers to as "his transformation". He is eating very clean with my help, and running and doing P90X. He lost 5 pounds this week and is motivated to keep going. I will say its very helpful to have someone on a similar plan. One more day of watching him eat pizza and chips I may have hurt him;)

I've said it so many times, but if I wasn't eating as clean I would not be seeing the results. It does take time to prep, but its so worth it....